today I did something terrible.
it's not something I've ever done before.
I sold my gold rings.
I've maxed out my credit card and I've got only 7.50 KD in my bank account, so I wanted a little extra cash. I also wanted to remove some extra items that I've accumulated over the years. actually, these two rings were my birthday present, and they are only a year old. I mean, I love them and all, but they were always meant to be used for a rainy day. I like to think of gold as method of saving your cash for when you need it the most - but looking fabulous while doing it!
I used all my hard earned money on, well, crap, now tat I think of it. just clothes and useless items here and there. I swear, my room is stuffed to the limit. I have no more space for any more shit. but I keep buying like there is not a tomorrow in sight. I also like to spend tons of money on food, and I've been especially hungry this month.
I've always been a shopaholic. it's my way of de-stressing. I find it very therapeutic, but lately it's become more of a curse rather than a blessing. my trips to the mall are more like a journey to a barren land I don't wish to visit. as much as I used to view a shopping mall as a garden of Eden, filled with wonders and nice things to buy, now I see it as a color-filled maze I need to leave desperately.
that's where gardening came into my life. I was saved my grass and dirt. but now that the season to plant and reap is over, I see myself going back to the Dark Side. I'm back to over-spending in the name of self-healing. I've bought so many things, and now my money is all gone. once upon a time, I was happy just playing in a sea of soil and compost, I now find myself engulfed by an ocean of sales and special promotions. "buy one, get one FREE", the sirens call out. and like a fool I follow blindly.
should have played it like Odysseus...
here's what the last of my money went to :